my statement

in view of all the passionate debate going on on nigel and cuilings' blogs, i really really feel i need to say something...

Number one: Legion of Mary freaking ROCKS our world!!!!!!

Nunber two: Anyone who stands in the way of someone who loves Legion so much, deserves to get *self censor*.

Number three: I support monica and cuiling and nigel and robin and pet all the way in their fight against *self censor*.

Number four: *self censor*

Number five: From what i see, the heart of the problem is not a chen nian tuan thing, but a family thing. So this problem cannot be solved simply by transplanting pple to another zhi tuan, cos, like it or not, the family will always be there... so, sadly, it's not so simple.

Number six: ANYTHING you guys need (supplies, advice, sai kang, services, or simply someone to talk to...) that is within my power to give, and that will help in any small way in this problem, JUST SAY and i will give. like i said, u guys have all my fullest support in the *self censor*, cos you guys mean the world to me.

I'm not claiming to understand the problem or that i know how to solve it... After all, i'm not from that zhi tuan. but i'm just saying that i will support in any way u need.

LEGION OF MARY ROCKS. ALL THE WAY.

i love Love Actually!!!!

Boy do i love that show...

Haha i'm in camp and just finished watching it... and it never fails to entertain me.... the first few times i watched it, it really hit the spot...

You know, I'm not the kinda guy who likes watching movies once i've already watched them, but Love Actually is one of the few exceptions! I really really have a soft spot for Romance movies, so long as they're not to over-lovey and keep it real! Haha ok maybe some of them like the guy learning Portugese and the Brit who scores in America or the kid who chiongs thru the airport are a bit exxagerated... haha but who cares? it's really fun...

The kid and his concert and the Mariah Carey song, oh, that's one of my fav stories cos it's all so adorable, and how his Stepdad is so supportive of what most adults would view as childish crush... his determination to learn drums, is all so naive, so idealistic, so juvenile... let's not forget the one-liner "Well, we need Kate and we need Leo, and we need them now!"

And the rockstar is dam cool. "That the person I actually.... er... love... is.... you..." Or, the classic one-liner which he so elegantly uses to brush of the wierdness of male affection: "Now let's go get pissed and watch porn!"

But the best story of all, i think, is the one where the guy confesses to Keira Knightly. "To me, you are perfect."

Or, in the full version, which this hopeless romantic remembers, is :
''But I have to say, Without hope or agenda, Just because it's Chrismas-, (And on Christmas, you tell the Truth), To me, you are perfect. And my wasted heart will love you, Until you look like this." And he shows a placard of a shrivelled old woman... it's just so utterly sweet but sad...

And the Prime Minister is cool! If only our Prime Minister could dance like that...

I also really like the sad stories: the one where Professor Snape has an affair, and how his "cold English wife" deals with it. And the one about the girl with the schizo brother, cos it really shows the other, less glamourous, less romantic, albeit an equally beautiful, side of love.

Yes so, i cannot resist blogging about how much i love this show always gets to me. Ah, i'm a desperate hopeless romantic who imagines that one day, i can sweep a girl off her feet, the love of my life. one day...

and Christmas always makes you feel romantic. and i haven't quite got out of this festive mood yet...

oh well, cheers guys, and a happy new year ahead!

the wedding

not American Pie, sorry.

but the eternal union of two great friends.

i dunno, somehow it seemed... erm... less romantic than i expected it to be?

maybe cos the romantic part was during the church ceremony, during which i was too freakin stressed to feel anything else.

but woohoo! broke my church playing virginity.

oh but the wedding video was really really great. anyone knows where to get it?

haha i liked the panadol part...

ya and the wedding dinner was freakin fun la! here are some pics!

haha ian and luke looked dam similar...

and the sunflowers and number things were from the clean up...

congrats again to robin and pet on your marriage... wishin u guys all the best....

merry christmas u all :D

a big thank you and merry christmas

hey... this goes out to all the guys in LOM...

christmas is coming in 2 days and prob won't see u till after that, so just wanna say thanks for all the gifts and presents u have showered upon us...

i guess christmas is always a really stressful time and we feel the need to give others presents and all, and trust me, i've felt it too... haha but i'm not a really presents-ish kinda guy (call me stingy or bo chap or whatever, but ey, that's me!) so ya... i've decided not to hand out gifts from the start, so i won't change my mind cos that'lll just be doing it for the sake of doing it... haha... or maybe i'm just finding an excuse....

but really, thank you.

perhaps i don't show it, but i really do appreciate it. monica and clare for your cookies, alex for your t-shirt thingy, joycelyn for your snacks, jojo and chris for your sweets, mag for your candy canes, shermaine for your turtles, robin and pet for your squashy babies, and all the rest of u guys...

merry christmas u guys. love u all ;D

bad taste

ok i think this ad is in pretty bad taste...

i saw it on a bus stop today...

erm they quote from the Bible a phrase that uses the word "eagles", just for the sake of making an eagle seem like a "Christmas Bird"... lol...

and they can't even be bothered to state the chapter and phrase of where they get it from...

i mean, it's bad enough that Christmas nowadays is SO BLOODY commercialised and manufactured, now they're using the Bible and totally unrelated phrases to further reinforce this weak parody of Christmas, in order to capitalise on the season for more sales... that's in bad taste man...

i mean, no offence to the bird park and all, the bird park is a nice place... but this ad isn't good... pls don't sue me :D

confession night

hmm hmm hmm i went confession today... i penitential service at blessed sac...

why so far? well, got duty tmr, must return by tonight, camp is in the west, blah blah blah... so anw, long story short, i went to blessed sac for penitential today. and wow! the new building is up. last time i went there was for their 'fun day' in march... still had the old building and had to pee in the very horrible toilet... haha so congrats to that church for putting up a building so fast....

haha finally got down to my christmas shopping, which is just an excuse to get more clothes... if u look hard (which i did...) there're bargains everywhere! today i spent 1.5 hrs looking for jeans in JP. hmm.... finally found one that fit almost perfectly for.... drumroll please... $23.50!!! woohoo!

and and and and and.... on sunday i found this really really cool white shirt that looked EXACTLY like the one james bond wore in the casino royale movie (in the scene where he acted as a valet and crashed the idiot's car...) or maybe it only looked like it when I put it on... haha.... ccchhhheeeeeehhhhh bahhhhh.... shameless sia... anw it was.... $14 bucks! yay! but i won't reveal where i got that one, or it'll spoil the casino royale effect... haha!

and i finally got the new radiohead cd i've been eyeing... haha i just wanted it for 'high and dry', but i figured the cd would have some other great songs worth discovering too... hmmm so far, i like 'fake plastic trees' and '(nice song)' and the song that goes 'fade away...'

ok ok ok... soooooo.... i went to confession right, and i've began to feel real real guilty about saying all those bad words... yes i'm trying NOT to say bad words! think i can...? hmmm, only time will tell... oh, and i'll try not to badmouth other pple too! erm.... that seems haaaarrrddddd......

and i had a CS competition in my unit today.... HAHAHAHAHA it was dam hilarious cos i was so badddd.... i mean, all the bloody pple all look black what? so shoot also dunno who? so LLST i shoot my guys like a million times.... and they all said that the best sTrategy is to kill me first.... (they didn't la, just talking...)

haha and note to all future team mates,whatever you do, DON'T EVER ASK ME TO PLANT BOMB!!!! hiayoh.... there was this time when i had the bomb, we were all at the bomb site, all my guys pointing their guns to the door, guarding me, waiting for me to plant... and i run in circles around for 1 minute, feeling dam gabrah shouting "HOW TO PLANT? HOW TO PLANT? HOW TO PLANT?????!!!!!" or, "WHERE TO PLANT????!!!!" u know the way i shout when i'm nervous right?

in the end, all the bloody counter come in and headshot all of us then we lose. DAM TU LAN.

oh btw, for now, MY HANDPHONE CANNOT SEND OUT MESSAGES. so don't feel offended if u don't get your customary "kk" or "nites" or "ya thx" or "cya ard" or whatever s**t.
see? i'm making the effort to self-censor!

oh and robin and pet's wedding is in three days and i'm strangely not nervous even though it's my first time playing for church.... why?! i want to feel at least a little nervous... i should be feeling that.... oh well...

cheers u all!

my musings

dear all who visit my blog. since the traffic is pretty high nnow, i would like to request that u visit my other blog. click my musings on the blog page. or, go to musingsandheart.blogspot.com. it would really really mean a lot to me if u guys read my art works... :D

it sucks to write stuff without having pple to read or appreciate them... u can tag the blog or leave comments.... pls visit! tks!!!

holy shit a freaking miracle happened today

WOOHOO HAHA ALLELULIAH A FREAKING BIG MIRACLE HAPPENED LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FREAKING PASSED MY IPPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

Yes darlings it is a VERY BIG THING for me. i had failed for 5 yrs, every since pull ups was uintroduced at sec 3. always ZERO.

then then then then then..... in JC 2, after much gym training, i managed to do one!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was the turning point.

exactly one yr ago, i could do 4.

by the end of BMT, i could pass with 7 pull ups.

by my broad jump fail like fuck.

at start of BMT, got 162. passing mark: 216. fuck shit man.

then by end of BMT, got 189. bloody platoon sgt chua make fun of me infront of the whole platoon. i'll never forget that.

so, becos that that cannot go command school, stuck in 8SAB as an M113 driver. but that's ok la. i got over that.

every day in bunk, i squat and squat and squat. and tuck jump and tuck jump and tuck jump. improver, deprove, improve, deprove. stuck at 189. henta kaki for 9 dam months. my mdm scold me "why cannot jump so simple", every one say "huh? fail jumping? so wasted..." every one say i cannot get corporal rank becos fail jump. dam wasted. i felt like shit. jumping was my waekness. my one weakness. the one reason i amounted to dam little in the army.

but now, to my utter utter surprise i PASSSSSSSSSSEDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!
on the eve of my one year anniversary of enlistment, i passed! Praise God.

now i remember

haha ok ya after reading angela's blog, i now remember what this camp experiance was mostly like...

erm to put it simply i felt kinda like a superstar... i know this sounds arrogant and all, and i pray u guys will forgive me for saying this but... it was because being an ygz and all was kinda glamourous and all that hooha and everyone wished they were in your shoes... in a way la... then they shower u with love... tks guys for all your letters and cheers and smiles and hugs btw... but u seem too busy, too stressed, too focused to take it all in. such is the curse of my position, the position as games i/c, ironically, the very same position that i was a 'superstar' for. sometimes i found myself thinking "ya they all want this, but if they know what shit i'm gg thru, they'd rather stay a camper..." haha do high profile pple feel like this? ok. really, pls pls forgive me for sounding so arrogant and jaded. i'm just trying to express sth here.

sigh... i really pressured myself too much this time round... the camp just flew by, marked by the major kangle events... BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT..... That being said, it was all worth it. cos i found u guys. thru the thick veneers of work and stress in camp, the piercing light of love really shone thru and hit me. i know i'm closer to all u guys after this camp, esp the other ygz and my olps guys... as for my old friends, my ancient legion friends... angela, pet, robin, nigel... i rekindled something that was lost for a while, cos bmt sort of took me away from the outside world, what with me being emo about being away from home and all... it helped me find a passion and oomph once again...

and enough about me... seeing the love u guys pour out... in the letters, the blogs, the conference calls... love for each other, ove for Legion, love for God... really makes it a triumph for me, reminds me why i do this, makes camps something a little more than a do-it-for-the-sake-of-doing-it kinda thing. no.wait. a lot more. a lot lot more.

haha... i think the way i feel is sort of mirrored in those more lao jiao ygz. but let me tell u something. the 1st or 2nd time u become ygz is really a hell of an amazing unforgettable beutiful magical captivating experience. don't believe me, ask monica. i think she feels that way. but as a lao jiao... which i daresay i am, it feels... still really great but not as great as the first few times la... sadly. but every camp is different. every camp has something new. every camp has something special.

but one thing i always love... those really late nights when u have to keep urself awake by remaining high... and doing dam lame but hilarious things and laughing for no reason... and... shh... gossips. ok, lets face it. we all love to gossip. love it. we all love scandals. we all love laughing at pple...

haha...

life after jxy

hey hey hey.... finally i have come out of the hole i crawled under... this is my first entry after jxy... haha it's really great to see so much jxy traffic flooding the Net. wow i'm really amazed at how much u guys really feel connected... especially Nigel... never thought he was capable of having such a strong connection to anything for that matter... well, we learn more abt pple everyday, even those we think we knew for a lfetime... :)

ya i think what nigel said on his blog is true... abt that 'post-jxy' sickness thing... haha i really have no idea why it happens, it just does... it just really connects u with the event, the memories, the pple... it's one of the strange mysteries we'll never fully understand...

sigh... it was kinda sad for me that i didn't really get a chance to get into the post-jxy frenzy, with all your blog entries and confrence calls etc... it's not that i don't care... hope u guys don't think that i'm too jaded. or that i don't care. cos i do. i do care.

it's just that... the moment jxy ended i was plunged back into the literal hustle back in camp... it was LAB inspection, and, trust me, the M113 has a million things to detect and remedy. it is a demanding creature. i spent hours working and returning to bunk throughly exhausted and now, the inspection is finally over (fyi, my M113 passed and my unit got an overall grade C... woohoo!... that is really a miracle) haha army pple are procrastinators... we leave everything to the last... so ya, now that it's over i can finally get back into the world of virtual frivolity...

sigh... but i guess now that i am writing again, i can't write with that much vigour or that much passion, cos the connection, ie 'post-jxy syndrome' is fast fading in me. yes. it happens. it is something that i am already accustomed to. life is sad. it's full of moments and pple u love so so much, moments u wanna last forever, feelings that u hope will never die that just fades away. slips away. an all u can do is stand by and watch. even memories fade with time. that's life. we accept it. we move on. we live.

haha nothing lasts forever. really. it's sad. but the only thing we can really depend on is God's love. the only thing that's constant. the only thing that's reliable. but we continue to treasure the pple, continue to tresure the moments, that He has given us. cos it's what He would want us to do. Cos it's beautiful. cos it will fade. cos we only have today.

carpe diem people, carpe diem.

anw, for all in jxy and who have shared this amazing amazing journey with me, i love you all.
i love u all.