life after jxy

hey hey hey.... finally i have come out of the hole i crawled under... this is my first entry after jxy... haha it's really great to see so much jxy traffic flooding the Net. wow i'm really amazed at how much u guys really feel connected... especially Nigel... never thought he was capable of having such a strong connection to anything for that matter... well, we learn more abt pple everyday, even those we think we knew for a lfetime... :)

ya i think what nigel said on his blog is true... abt that 'post-jxy' sickness thing... haha i really have no idea why it happens, it just does... it just really connects u with the event, the memories, the pple... it's one of the strange mysteries we'll never fully understand...

sigh... it was kinda sad for me that i didn't really get a chance to get into the post-jxy frenzy, with all your blog entries and confrence calls etc... it's not that i don't care... hope u guys don't think that i'm too jaded. or that i don't care. cos i do. i do care.

it's just that... the moment jxy ended i was plunged back into the literal hustle back in camp... it was LAB inspection, and, trust me, the M113 has a million things to detect and remedy. it is a demanding creature. i spent hours working and returning to bunk throughly exhausted and now, the inspection is finally over (fyi, my M113 passed and my unit got an overall grade C... woohoo!... that is really a miracle) haha army pple are procrastinators... we leave everything to the last... so ya, now that it's over i can finally get back into the world of virtual frivolity...

sigh... but i guess now that i am writing again, i can't write with that much vigour or that much passion, cos the connection, ie 'post-jxy syndrome' is fast fading in me. yes. it happens. it is something that i am already accustomed to. life is sad. it's full of moments and pple u love so so much, moments u wanna last forever, feelings that u hope will never die that just fades away. slips away. an all u can do is stand by and watch. even memories fade with time. that's life. we accept it. we move on. we live.

haha nothing lasts forever. really. it's sad. but the only thing we can really depend on is God's love. the only thing that's constant. the only thing that's reliable. but we continue to treasure the pple, continue to tresure the moments, that He has given us. cos it's what He would want us to do. Cos it's beautiful. cos it will fade. cos we only have today.

carpe diem people, carpe diem.

anw, for all in jxy and who have shared this amazing amazing journey with me, i love you all.
i love u all.